Thursday, November 26, 2015

When you can't be with someone you love... every thought turns their way

Can't be truer.

Monday, November 23, 2015

November 23, 2015

Future: the one word that often brings me fear. The more I think about it, the more my thought travels far away to the unknown time and places. And I know it's not good for myself, just like one quote says: overthinking is what killing you.

The exact last year, I wouldn't have thought that today this year, would be a very sorrowful day of my life.

Yesterday my dad fell off the stairs in my mom's hometown with the head facing down. Thank God it wasn't a severe injury but still dad will have to go for more advance medical treatment to make sure if the inside part of his body is fine.

Meanwhile today northwise my place, around 7000 km far, there is a wedding ceremony going on. Two personalities are tying the knot to be faithful to each other until the end of time, uniting themselves in a holy bound named marriage.

7000 km southwise that wedding venue, I am here silently wishing the newly wed couple for a happy and long-last marriage life. May the journey of the marriage life fulfilled with love, joy, wealth, happyness, and also cute and healthy kids.

I know, starting from today, it's not going to be easy for me to go through this life bcoz everytime I look down to the deepest, lowest surface of my heart, I find myself crying helplessly. I am crying bcoz now I have to face this world by my own. I am crying bcoz I have lost the one whom I always share my thought and feeling to, my good morning and good night to, my i love you too to. Mere jaan, mere soniye.

Mein kya karu?

We are not living in a Bollywood movie. Life is real thus we have to move forward. The more I look down to the surface of my heart, the more selfish I be. But the more I look to my family, my parents and people who surround me with unconditional love, the more selfless I become.

And yeah that's the main point in life; the struggle to let go. Let the world move forward, let the time heal everything.

Closing lyrics: Tere Liye

... dil mein magar, jalte rehi, chaahat ke diye
tere liye, tere liye...

... but in my heart, the flame of love continues to burn
only for you, only for you...

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

OMG Shah Rukh Khan Replied Me On Twitter!!!

Probably there is an admin handling that, due to the promotion for the SRK's newest Dilwale trailer.
But wtf I don't care! It just definitely made my day lahh!!!

Next goal: to meet him in person and tell him how much I LOOOOVE him and his movies and take a picture with him. One of the bucket lists! Ameen.

Monday, November 2, 2015


I started watching Bollywood movies eversince I came back from India (Bollywood used to be something I really HATED and never paid any attention to! lol). Most of the time, I would roll my eyes seeing my elementary friends (at the early 2000's) talking about Kuch Kuch Hota Hai, Rahul, Anjeli, Kajol, etc, etc.

I think universe has cursed me for hating something way too bad. (Moral: Don't ever hate something too bad if you don't have knowledge about it.)

And now, Bollywood movies now have been my best remedy everytime I feel low. And the best part is... Shah Rukh Khan.

Do not ask me why, I hardly know the reason how can I like him as an actor.. I mean, an exceptional actor. Just watch his movies then you can tell yourself.

So, cannot stop watching FAN teaser today... OMG... Even a teaser of his upcoming movie made me cry already... Can't wait for the FAN movie to release.

Aand, last but not least, HAPPY 50th BIRTHDAY SHAH RUKH KHAN!!!! (OMG can't believe he is the same age as my mom!)

Thank you so much for the inspiration, motivation, laugh, and tears you have brought into my life after watching your movies. 

Have many wonderful years ahead. May Allah bless and protect you always.

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Turning 24 [plus Pixy Lipstick Swatches]

I am turning 24 today! Yeeayy alhamdulillahhh....!!!

Nothing much to do to celebrate, as always.

All praises to Allah SWT for His blessings in life.

May I become a better person than I was yesterday, may He ease and fix my heart to be as wide as ocean and as light as balloon, may He always protect me and my beloved people, may He always guide me to go through this life in the right path, may He shower me with rizki from all ways in all forms, may I and we all always be under his love and mercy. Ameen.

Soo, as usual, what is birthday post in my blog without a birthday selfie? Ahem!

Friday, September 25, 2015

The Visit Story-Interval

Couldn't stop crying like a kids from the past 3 days coz of.... you-know-who.

My The Visit Story saga is still 3 chapters left, up to today, but I guess... I need some time to heal myself before I continue writing it (hopefully before I turn 24, which is less than 1 month!)

I don't know....

But I read somewhere that true love story never have ending.

And I believe in it.