Thursday, June 20, 2013

A Relationship

I may have kept about my relationship inside my head only, but now I decide to start writing it little-little in blog as I am planning to write the full version later. I have never been too open about this to my fam since I was teenage, and I don't know why. So, if my bro/sister/cousin/even my mom read this... yeah... my mom might kill me hahaha... (no, I'm just kidding).

Still remember about my India trip? Ya, my premier incredible journey across the ocean. I solemnly admit that I went travelling to India because of my pure interest for it's culture, but... I will also admit 1 more hidden reason that has encouraged me to make it true: a native friend. And please notice this: I have already had my interest for India's culture a wee bit earlier before the coming of that guy into my life. So, it's like sambil menyelam minum air lah :D

Here is the story.

We first met in a very unexpected afternoon on December 2011. That day, I was super bored and stumbled upon a random chit-chat website which once was recommended by my friends. Needless to mention the website, I agree that it's a very brilliant invention in curing desperate people that dying of boredom like me. After some trial with varies of people, we accidentally met, had a little chat, and exchanged email address. I just felt so flat at the beginning coz I had never meant to seek for a relationship in cyber way. No way!

As time goes, we got more intense in chatting about everything: bollywood movie (this was the start up topic coz knowing that he is Indian made me wanted to know more about its movie), economics, cultures, technology, public transportation, sports, tourism, jokes, etc. Days become months and we were going to talk about ourselves: hobbies, activities, family, background, and religion.
He is Hindu, while I am Muslim. He asked me about how is Islam in Indonesia, and I asked him double: about how is Hindu and Muslim in India. As I didn't have much knowledge about difference of Hindu and Buddhist, from chatting with him now I got better understanding about that.

The topic went narrow to personal story. He was the first to tell about his life starting from childhood until now. He wrote that he doesn't have a pleasant childhood memories. His father died when he was 1 years old, left him with mom and his older sister to struggle the world alone. His mom had to take over his father's job in Indian Railway but it took 1 year to happen, making that year became the hardest year on his life. His mom must struggle to live herself with her 2 kids alone.

He said, "...I didn't have toys like other kids. My eyes are weak because I didn't get good food. That's why I am wearing glasses".

After his mom got that job, life was gradually running better. I asked him if his mom got married again and he replied,
"...No. Never. It's never easy for her and it's not common here".

Ok. I couldn't say much then. That was so sad but wait, should I believe in all that? Is he going to gain respect from me by boasting such drama like bollywood movies that have been adopted in sinetron-sinetron Mutivision Plus kepunyaan Raam Punjabi?
I was in doubt.

Then it's my turn to tell about my story. Well, as everything is normal in my family, I just told him the fine line. No boasting, no drama from my side. Just straight story.

I told him that I have a very wonderful father which I really love and he replied,
"... There is 1 word that I never say in my life, father. When I was in school my teacher often asked me, where is your father? I can't answer it. I go home crying to mom".

That moment my tears started dropping, bulu kudukku merinding. And I just don't know why, I am not in doubt anymore.

In the shortest form of this story, we were in love (ahayy....). We made our face to face meeting come true and  I have seen how positive and respectful he is. The relationship is still on going until now although we both realize that this will never be easy. But we always pray for the best, and keep doing on our best level in life.

Tuesday, June 18, 2013

Photo collage

Just made a photo collage of my self... eng ing eng.....


Let's get started!
  1. I don't know exactly, probably when I was around 6 months. I think I was quite cute lah =_=
  2. I have no idea too, 1 years old maybe. Was taken with my brother on my right side but he get cropped.
  3. Again... I don't know what age is this. The hand on my left side is my father's hand.
  4. Why did I look so pale and miserable like that? This photo was taken for family photoshoot when my mom was pregnant for my younger brother. Was I just angry, hungry, or sleepy that time?
  5. Say cheers...!!! Time for junior high school. Btw, I already started wearing head scarf that time.
  6. It's high school I guess. So busy with studying and no time for hair caring = cut them super short.
  7. Aha... College time.. This time I went to snap a picture with my favorite book writer.
  8. Smile smile... Was taken before my friend's thesis colloquium. I was smile very happily while she was so nervous beside me.
  9. Just taken some 1 month ago on my cousin's wedding. Try to frown my smile a little lah.

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Teeth Got Cleaned

The last time I visited dentist was around 6 months ago, so yesterday I went to revisit coz my teeth have been feeling dirty for the past 1 month.

Hiiii.....looks scary ha?
Don't worry I won't eat you coz I am half vegetarian 
You see my teeth? The lower part is very tight and looks messy like an angkot bangku 4 diisi 5, hahaha... Once a while I am thinking about putting braces there but then I realise that it would dry up my father's account so it's ok lah. I m sure that it's not affect too much in my smile's appearance coz my upper teeth are quite nice. Some cataract people even say it looks like Marshanda's smile, hahahaha.....

Sorry my twin sist, I stole ur pict from google
Good morning all :)

Monday, June 10, 2013

Subscribing A Blog

One day I was browsing thru something that I stumbled upon a very eye catching blog. It looks very attractive to me coz its said on the tagline that everyone's reading it. I keep rolling post by post to know who is the author, how is her background, what makes people read her blog, and so on. One of the awesome thing I find is that the author have started blogging since 2003! Wow! Let me do some recall about what I was doing in 2003: 12 years old, was so nervous facing transition from elementary to junior high school, started making trouble since imbalance of hormone and I am sure that I had never heard about the existence of internet, hahaha...

Let me tell a bit about the author. She is a Singaporean named Wendy, or also known as Xiaxue. She is blogging about her life,activities, thought, narcissism photograph, and any kind of stuffs just like another bloggers. What makes her become so known is her straight-forward words and controversial plastic surgeries she had done. Beside that, I also impressed with her love story that seems familiar to me :p

header of the blog. looks so tempting, eh?

At first, I felt so errr... gila banget ini cewek... suntik sana, oplas sini, rambut warna-warni, nggak banget deh... And she is also like can't be apart from "fucking" word (coz her blog contains lots of those), hedonism, and so on. But then I kept rolling, reading post by post on her blog, visited her youtube channel and ow... she has her own online reality show: Xiaxue-Guide to Life. I then started watching one episode, continued with one more, and two more, three more...
And well... I am getting to like her.

I don't know, but reading her words in blog seems very different than watching her live in youtube video. If I got her as a rude and sarcasm person in blog, in youtube I see her as a very funny, spontaneous, and annoyingly happy personality. Never thought that she has a warmly positive charm. From her blog and video I also learn a lot about Singapore, particularly Singlish with its funny phrases such as oi, lah, leh, mah, meh, hor, can, sai, sao, ah, wat, etc. I give my 2 thumbs up for her coz from blogging alone she can be known by people, earn money by receiving lots of ads, gain her life thru sponsors, and meet famous people. How powerful a blog can impact one's life, moreover if it's supported by a good entertainment-management too.
And now... it's time to upgrade my blog subscription list lah...

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

A Bar of Chocolate


This was my first experience given chocolate by a man (besides of my father). I still remember that day when we went to a grocery to buy napkin for me, he offered me a Kitkat chocolate bar.

Him: You want chocolate? (while taking a chocolate bar)
Me: Oh.. no. Thanks.
Him: You sure?
Me: Hmm... Is it halal?
Him: Come on. It's veg chocolate. You see, this green sign.
Me: Oww... It's nice.
Him: Yaa. Let's take one.
Me: Thanks :"D

It feels nice when someone bought you something you love, but it feels beyond nice when it comes from someone who really care for you. That time I realized why girls love chocolate, flower, and everything that comes from her boyfriend. It's not about the taste of chocolate, the fragrance of the flower, or the price of the gift. It's about that feeling, which makes her feel loved and secure.

Monday, June 3, 2013

Nipon Nipon, Cha Cha Cha

もしもし !!!
わたし の なまえわ シチイマシタ です。
いま  わたしわ インドネシア に すんで います。
どぞう よろしく  おねがいします。
ありがとう。。。。

I just activated Japanese alphabetic on my windows and it feels soo fun.

I had learned Japanese for 3-full-years in high school but sadly coz lack of practice I can feel the decline of my Japanese skill. Now I realize that language is windows of knowledge that I won't let it runs away from my head.

がんばって !!!

Saturday, June 1, 2013

Cleaning Up

I just did some beres-beres on my cabinet and took out all things that I rarely wear, starting from scarfs, t-shirts, dress, and pants. Since few days back I saw a 'scarf-donating event' was opened near my place, I decided to drop some of my stuffs there while the rest would be dropped on a social event held by student council at my college.


I personally think it's very important to clean up your cabinet regularly coz it makes you realize about how maaany outfit you have so that you would know if they are still wearable or not. I faced some confusion to decide whether I should keep this or not, I still need that or not, and so on. Then I fall into conclusion: when it doesn't fit my body and I never wear it in this semester anymore, it's time to move to another cabinet. Trust me, it would be worth when they landed into cabinet of people who need rather than locked inside your cabinet, hidden at the most bottom row. (In case for foot wear, it usually ends up as below:)

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As I am not a dedicated follower of fashion, most of my stuffs are just fine and comfortable. I also take care of my clothes nicely by washing them with my own hands and wearing them in turns. 

Seeing some of them made me agree that it's better to pay a little bit more for nice-fabric clothes than pay cheaper for not-really-good materials, as time will reveal the quality of the product. And as what I have done so far, the way you treat your clothes really helps you to keep them in the good quality. 

Finally, my cabinet feels nicer and lighter. And now.... I have reason to do shopping again.... ;p